Sunday, July 24, 2011

tammana tammana hai... umr ke sath samajhdar ho jaegi
















in chotee chotee ankhon mein
un gudde gudiya ki shadi ke khel se
ek guzarish si ban uthi thi
ki koi gudda mere liye bhi aega
in hathon ko thamega

guzarish yun jawaan hui
aur kehne lagi
ki aisa koi ae
jiske hone se muskurahat chehre par aise ae
ki wo chehre ko kahe
'dekh main to yahin rahungi, tujhe jo karna hai kar'

socha tha aisa bhi ho
ki uski ek nazar se
sharm ki lali
rang jae galon ko chahat ke rang me
par na wo nazar mili
na in galon pe wo noor aya
aur na wo ae

tammanna thi ki pyar hoga
ankhon mein usi ke khwab honge
raton ki neend yunhi hawa ho jaegi
raton ki neend to haram hui
par tanhaae ke khamosh lamhon mein

ek guzarish aisi bhi thi
ki dam todein gar
to unki bahon mein ho
ab ye hal hai
na bahein hain..
aur maut ne bhi dhokha de rakha hai

intezar to hai magar
zehen me yehi bat chal kar ati hai
ki tammanna tammanna hai
umr ke sath samajhdar ho jaegi.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

lil paws :)

I was rushing (not running... it’s not FRIDAY) towards the bus stop this morning... (as usual) when I noticed pups running around on the lane which connects my place to the stop.

They look so cute, with smiling faces and wagging tails...playing around on the sand by the side of the road...even though I didnt have time AT ALL... I couldn’t help but give the rest of the chapatti I rolled up for myself...very meagre left as I was damn hungry (still am...wonder whats happened to me...CPUs say 'intel inside'.. I say 'demon inside')

They were 5...one of them couldn’t get to eat at all...you should see them eat...they eat as if they haven’t eaten for ages... 4 of them encircled the prize (for being so cute)... the fifth one (spotty, the only one with patterns) just kept barging into every other, trying to get into the circle...bit playfully on one of its sibling's tail..

one of'em (snow white smarty) took some and tottered across the lane...spotty went running behind and tried snatching some of it... but its attempts were futile...

Finally frustrated and giving up...it howled (probably to its mom) and I knew it was the right time to get back to my senses (catch the bus...for I don’t wanna be bitten/CHEWED...by the fury of the mom).

I started pacing towards the stop. When I was at a comparatively safer distance I thought of turning back to see the drama. They all stood lined up (seemed so) listening to the scolding... she just gave a bark... or a few... and they all disappeared...

I chuckled...few more steps and I saw the bus coming...

the homecoming

Remember in college...when you pack your bags, she'd ask you to bring your dirty clothes and you'll take a huge bundle JUST FOR THE WASH! The day of travel and she'll make you wake up 3 hours in advance so that you’d be on time for your train...and you end up being ready an hour in advance... thinking if you could have a shower again before leaving :P.
then she will call up & confirm (not less than thrice) whether you've kept the tickets intact, in place!

and no matter how old you are, 18 or 48 she'd always ask you not to get down on the random railway stations in between..

and when I get down from the train the frenzy begins, to find those eyes, the eyes that just sparkle when they get even a glimpse of you...it takes barely seconds for her to find...i get down...land my bags and there she is...i touch her feet...she is all smiles and hugs me with all the love she could shower

then she'll start telling what she made for lunch\dinner... whatever... food will always be waiting at home. and she won’t stop... she has a million things to tell... even if you have a talk every single day (TWICE)!

I’m peeping outside the window... its raining... makes me think about the pakodas i whine for and mom finally makes them... sayin "i'll just taste 'one'...” and you end up having only some

when I reach home... my dog comes running and growling...as if a child complaining about every "bad" thing people did to it. It'd take my handbag from my hand (always) and carry it inside... and then won’t return...then when it gets all tired of its tantrums... it'll just leave the bag at some random place and lie down near my feet...
as soon as you get up.. it gets up too.. "heads up for fooood"!

Then you'll settle down... while she'll keep asking over n over again if you're hungry...you unpack... take out gifts...
And other stuff too.. leave the room like that... all shabby... to give it to her...all fascinated... if she'll like it or not
(though its never a surprise.. :P) she'll love it even its ridiculous..


then dad'll call from office.. "hmm.. you reached.. good.. was the journey okay?.. alright! then see you in the evenin.."
SIR YES SIR!

i throw myself on the couch...turn on the tv and smile (the 'woah' expression by Joey & Chandler on friends when they got their LA-Z-Boys fits better :P) remembering the days of glory.. watchin any random movie, who cares.. its my couch!

hours pass and i still lay there.. in peace!

doorbell! and its pitaji back from office..i panic.. shrug off the lethargy. He arrives with his office bag..heavy as ever, i reach up to touch his feet, he blesses keepin his hand over my head..and moves in like a silent terminator..

bad day/ good day...its the same..give him ten minutes and hes afresh.. then you can make out if the day was fruitful.

he'll take my 'woah' couch and browse through the channels.. its a treat if theres a bachchan movie..

i take out the present i bought for him.. "yea..its good.. acha hai acha hai" he looks up and smiles..

dinner!!!!!!!

everything'll be your fav.. the way you've dreamt it.. for all these months..

i hog.. overeat and pop a unienzyme.. :P

at night you'll have the sweetest sleep... obvious after the wholesome burp you get after eating the food from heavens..you'll sleep like a baby..even the nightmares will keep u entertained till the morning.. no commercial breaks.

my dog still maintains a habit, a very cute one still very annoying when its your first morning at home.

It comes and wakes me up.. sticking its wet slime-ish nose to my face. If I turn my face around then it tries the trick on my feet. What actually ticks me off is when i struggle to grab my watch from the table
nearby and strain my sleepy eyes to see the time.. ITS 6 IN THE MORNING! but then when you look at it..its all smiles and wagging its tail at the speed of light or even faster.. you can’t help but ditch your cozy, comfortable, snug bed and take it out for a run.

i miss home! :(

Friday, October 10, 2008

The Last Persuasion (sorry im bad at giving titles)

(plz dont make any misconceptions what so ever about my orientation... i'm absolutely straight.. just wrote it from a different perspective....)

baby this is the moment,
please dont go away
for the sake of the time we spent,
listen to me today .

your love feels like sand,
going down my clenched fist
i badly wanna keep and,
i dont wanna let go off it.

all i can do is look at you,
words barely want to step out
eyes aint blinking too,
am i still breathing,i doubt

off my feet u sweep,
bedazzled by your beautiful eyes brown
intense and deep,
i cant help but drown

and i wish could never swim off,
the twists and turns of your hair
even if my days are rough,
feel like silk, i swear

no i wont let go,
i didn't want to either
this is what i have always wanted,
and it seems like forever

baby have you seen the rain outside,
my love pours down the same way for u
come and sit beside,
we'll fly to the sky so blue

listen to my heart,
it sings a song
two souls apart,
for you it longs

i'll love you and leave u never,
listen to me just one more time
be mine forever,
spending my life without you would be a crime.

so dont leave me here,
i'd die without you
i'll melt into tears,
if i dont have you......